when filming yesterday I could remembered an artists name and she didn't actually influence that much but her idea behind the piece resembled my work through the use of hyperventlying when having a panic attack and she showed that well through her work she inspired be in the fact that she used simple materials like glass and breath to show her work. which now reflecting back I feel I need to make my work easier by using simple materials but still have my theme showing. I basically just need to keep[ reflecting which I haven't and its annoying me because now I know I would of made less work with more of a meaning to lile shitty pieces that I don't actually know why I did them. infect i did I just did them because I didn't know what else to do. and I want to kick myself right now.                                                                                                                                          the only thing I do know right now is that I have never been so fcused and inspired by my work than in my fmp. I like the meaning and I relate a lot to this personal theme which I have pickled. I really picked the theme to show other people what's its like having anxiety and how personal it is to me and kind of scary to put it across. I also like how it isn't that easy to see the theme I have picked therefore I only really know what its about until I tell people.